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Where do I go from here?

A lot has been happening in my life right now that I can no longer find some time to think about what really is going on. Like, what the heck’s happening?! Why am I where I am now? How did that happen? What am I supposed to do next? Why do I feel this way despite everything? Whyasdfghjkl!?

I’m so damn confused right now. I honestly don’t know what I want to do with my life. So I thought I need to make some time for myself to let everything sink in. And inhale. Exhale. But.. nothing. Nothing. I just end up overthinking. And when I do, I begin to realize that everything is nothing — that whatever I am doing now is  not what I want myself to be doing. That everything’s meaningless. Pointless. But I can’t help but keep doing them because I feel like it’s what I’m supposed to do so I can find my essence.

I don’t know.