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It occurred to me as I was having coffee this afternoon. Coffee tastes so good.

It’s been a week since I left my job and posted an obligatory farewell should-have-been speech on my website, and I would be a hypocrite if I’d say I don’t miss the people I used to work with. It’s not the first time I felt this for them (if you know what I mean and what happened March of last year) but we all know that this time around, it was my choice and come on, we all know there’s no way I’m gonna work with them on that same company anymore.

It’s been a week since I started sipping coffee again on my favorite cup during my favorite time of the day at my favorite couch with either my favorite music on the background or a book that would soon become another favorite. It’s amazing, you know, to find myself thinking life is so great at such a routinary coffee break — to not be bothered too soon that my coffee’s getting cold. To realize I’m drinking this coffee because I want to, not because I need to. To be relieved by the fact that drinking two cups will keep me awake all night — which is nothing new — and that it doesn’t matter because I’m on my favorite couch and I would be here on my favorite time probably watching a favorite movie the next day.

And so, having the glorious time to think and write about this on my own time is probably one of the real reasons why I quit my job. It isn’t mostly because I don’t feel the same eagerness I used to have for my job. It’s me. It’s always me ~*selfish mode: ON. loljk*~.

This time, I would like to share what I wrote on my resignation letter. I believe this isn’t that confidential, so I’m doing it. 🙂

Trivia: if you found this quite informal, I should have let you read my resignation letter for my first job — it sounded something more of a speech given out on rallies, now that I thought about it. LoL.

Dear all:

When the same cowboys are shooting the same animals on the same mountaintops, it will be best to fold the seat and walk out the door — without turning back, right?

I would like this letter to explain briefly the reasons why I have come to such decision.

During my coaching with my current team leader, I was asked what my plans are for the next six (6) months. It was then that I shared my thoughts, that, now serve as the reasons why I am doing this.

The first reason, I believe, is understandable: I am pursuing my studies again this coming academic year. The second one, I still believe, I will have to put emphasis on: I would (and I am doing now) resign when the time comes that I no longer feel the same drive that makes me function the way I was expected to. And that has happened. Not that I intentionally did this non-performance thing, but there’s some reason I can’t fathom that makes the fuel, that once sent me flying to work before, vanish. I have other reasons actually that I would be willing to say on my exit interview, but I think this is the one that summarizes it all. Please know that I hold nothing against the company and that my actions were based on my personal goals.

Thus, this letter is to officially inform the management and the client that I am resigning from my position as a [not gonna say it] effective immediately.

Thank you for being a rad company. I have learned a lot.

Truthfully, I have a lot of things to say that I didn’t put there because 1) I don’t know how to explain them, really, 2) I am not sure if they would be happy to hear those, 3) reasoning out just leads to a lot of discussions and I don’t want to discuss things that day, because yes poetic as this may sound: I just want my thoughts to be heard, and 4) I was writing that letter on my station during work time and I felt kind of awkward, like I always feel.

So there. Woa. It’s amazing to see how coffee does to my mind, right? 😉